Wednesday, April 22, 2020

25 - The Way You Look Tonight

Ariana bent her head and whipped back her hair before checking herself out in the mirror one last time. She truly loved this dress, more so now than at the shop.  Its ivory color, long sleeves, and cleavage-covering front were demure.  And while the gold beading lent it a little glitz, it wasn’t enough to earn the title of “slinky and sexy”. 

The neckline that dipped down to the small of her back and hemline that barely covered her derriere, though?  Those did the trick, and whatever they left lacking would be taken care of by her favorite pair of Michael Kors shoes.

The Bordeaux booties with four-inch heels gave the dress that little extra pop.  What she didn’t know about fancy clothes, she made up for with shoes.

What girl doesn't love shoes?

With a final grin at her reflection, she hurried out the door for her date.

A short time later, she paused in the doorway of the bar, having spotted Jon.  He was checking his watch, probably thinking that she should be arriving at any minute.  They had enough history for him to know that she was never late… ever. 

With five minutes left to spare before the designated hour of six o’clock, she snuck quietly up behind him to hear the bartender ask, “Can I get you something to drink, Sir?”

Jon’s glanced briefly at the cocktail napkin that was set before him before ordering, “Yes, I’ll have a Jack and Coke and- ”

Her hand on his shoulder had him pausing mid-sentence, so she stepped up beside him to supply, “I’ll have the same, please and thank you.”

Jon turned in his seat, and the smile in his eyes was obvious, even before they slid down her body.  By the time they came back up to meet hers, they’d were still smiling but had darkened several shades.  He definitely liked the dress. 

“Well, hello there, beautiful,” he drawled around the cocky smirk that she didn’t hesitate to return.  A girl couldn’t feel pretty without being a little cocky.

“Hello yourself.”

He leaned in to place a friendly kiss on her cheek, whispering, “You look stunning.” 

She climbed onto the stool he pulled out for her.  “Thanks. You look pretty amazing too. Have you been waiting long?”

"About five minutes."

The bartender returned with their drinks and asked, “Will you be joining us for dinner tonight?”

“No. Not this evening," Jon replied.

“Okay. Let me know if I can get you anything else.” He tapped his hand on the ledge of the bar before walking away.

“So, if we are not eating here, where are we eating?” she asked before taking a sip of her drink.

“You’ll see.”.

She ran her tongue along her upper lip, briefly savoring the sweet, oaky taste of the Jack Daniels whiskey.  There were other things on her mind besides cocktails, and she walked lazy fingers up the inside of his muscular thigh, stopping midway. 

"Not even a little hint?"

“You get zilch.”

“Fine. I can wait,” she dismissed breezily and withdrew her hand.

There was more than one way to skin a cat.

Ari crossed one leg over the other in a calculated move that shifted the dress higher up her tanned legs.  It was already a short dress, and with it now bordering on indecency, Jon drained his glass and threw a couple of twenties on the bar. 

“Ready?”

“Yes,” she returned with a sweet smile and put her hem back where it belonged.  “Lead the way.” 

Jon’s hand found the small of her back as he navigated them through the bar and lobby, and the tip of his thumb brushed bare skin where her dress dipped.  His touch created more of a shiver than the evening air when they stepped out of the hotel. 

The shiver was multiplied by the sleek, silver Bentley whose driver waited by the curb.  If she’d had any doubts as to who the distinguished man was waiting for, they were erased when his snowy head bobbed in acknowledgement.  That didn’t stop her from glancing over at Jon, who gave her a faint smile as the Bentley’s rear door was swept open to welcome them. 

“Where to this evening, Sir?”

“Please call me Jon, and The Old Port,” he replied while shielding Ariana, who entered the car bottom first.  After swinging her legs in, she scooted across the seat and tugged the hem of her dress down into the neighborhood of proper.

“Very well.”

The door closed, and in the seconds of solitude before their driver slid behind the wheel, she glanced at him.  “All this for the Port?  What are you up to?”

He covered her hand with his, interlocking their fingers, and she was convinced his smug purr was smoother than the Bentley’s engine as it pulled into traffic.  "You shall see.”

They were in the car a mere five minutes, heading south on Rue Saint-Jacques toward Rue Dollard.  A left onto McGill, followed by another left and a right brought them to their destination.  Ariana waited for the driver to open Jon’s door before making his way to her side to help her out of the car. 

“Thank you, Sir.”

“Silvestro,” he corrected kindly. 

“Thank you, Silvestro,” she obliged with a smile.

Lightly touching her elbow, Jon requested, “Gimme a sec, Ari?”

Ariana nodded without hesitation, watching with casual interest as he walked Silvestro to the front of the vehicle.  She couldn’t make out the quiet exchange of words, but clearly saw the envelope Jon passed over before they shook hands.  The envelope disappeared into Silvestro’s pocket as he bid them a good evening.   

“I thought we’d take a stroll along the river before we head to dinner. You think you're up to that with those shoes?”

Ariana lifted her foot slightly off the ground. "These old things? I can walk miles in these babies.”

She hooked her arm into his, and they joined the mixture of tourists and locals on the sidewalks.  It seemed like everyone was in a leisurely hurry, as they all were on wheels.  While strolling the promenade, they saw tourists learning to use a Segway, a group of people rollerblading, and even a family riding a quadricycle.

“How was your day with Cara?  Did you have fun?”

“Oh my gosh, Jon.  It was absolutely the best!  I can’t thank you enough for arranging it.  Not just the spa, but the dresses as well.  You are…  Well, just thank you.”

He shrugged off her praise with a simple, “You deserved it.”

“You deserved a day off, too, but I bet you didn’t take one.  What did you do today?”

“Nothing much.  Worked on some stuff for the tour.  Talked to the kids for a while.”

“You had all day.  Surely you did more than that.”

His mouth twitched at the corners, but he wouldn’t tell Ari anything more, no matter how much she prodded. 

With the sun beginning to set and the Clock Tower off in the distance, Ariana finally gave up. 

Instead of badgering him about his day, she told him how the city wanted to put an urban beach adjacent to the tower.  It would feature sand, chairs, a boardwalk and bar.  No swimming would be allowed in the river due to unsafe water, but it would have a misting station.   Plans were still in the discussion phase, but she thought it would be a great idea.

As they got closer to the tower, Ari noticed there were gates blocking off a portion of the promenade.  It was enough to deter mere mortals – she, in fact was about to turn back – but it didn’t faze Jon.  Her date merely nodded at the security guard and kept walking.

Ari’s feet moved to keep up with him but she held her breath, fully expecting the guard to deny their entry.  “Jon,” she beckoned in a low voice, tugging at his arm.  “I don’t think we should be here.”

“Yes, we should.”

Full of confidence, he didn’t break stride.  He also didn’t offer an explanation.

“Really?  Because there’s no one here except us.” 

Now he stopped.

When she didn’t, he guided Ari in front of him, sliding up behind her.  Two heavy arms wound around her waist and the weight of his chin came to rest on her shoulder. 

“Just watch.” 

“What am I…” Ariana didn’t know what she was watching for, and had been about to ask, when a helicopter came into sight.  The distinctive whoosh of its blades had been in the distance, she realized.  A whooshing that grew louder as the ‘copter landed on the opposite side of the tower. 

“What did you do?” she demanded.

“We’re going La Pinsonniere.  This is the fastest way to get there.”

She twisted in his arms and wrapped her arms around his neck. “That is pretty far just for dinner, don’t you think?”

“We’re spending the night. I’ll have you back in time for the show tomorrow night.” His eyes rolled as he said that, knowing how excited she was about it. “So whaddya say?  You ready?”

“Heck yeah. Let’s go!” She relaxed her arm, grabbed his hand, and headed in the direction of their ride.

Jon couldn’t hide his devilish smile as he watched her try to figure out how she was going to get in with that dress of hers.

“Are you going just sit there and laugh, or do you plan on helping?”

He was laughing while he did it, but Jon extended a hand to help her up.  Once again, he positioned himself so that her short dress didn’t flash anyone that shouldn’t be flashed and waited for her to take the seat on the opposite side so he could follow.  

The pilot introduced himself as Simon after they were buckled up and wearing headsets.  He explained that it was a clear night to fly and their flight time would be just under ninety minutes.

They followed the Saint Lawrence River, flying over the Bonsecours Market and McGill University.  When they reached Quebec City, Ariana could see Le Chateau Frontenac as well as Old Port Quebec.  Soon the city lights seemed to fade as the orange hued sky took over. 

“Jonny, is that it?” Ariana squealed as it came into view.

“Yes.”

Set on a bluff perched high above the St. Lawrence River, La Pinsonniere was truly a spectacular little getaway.  Or so Ariana heard.  She’d never been there personally. 

In accordance with its size, it had all the amenities of a major hotel.  What made it different – according to the travel magazines and sites – was that La Pinsonniere also offered the more personalized services of an intimate bed and breakfast.  It was exactly the kind of place where the rich and famous would vacation, hence the reason she’d never visited.   

Ari was among the working class who’d always wanted to see it, though.  It was the perfect ending to the perfect day, courtesy of Jon.  He’d gone above and beyond to make today different than all the days before.  It was all she could do not to thank him yet again, but before she could, they were being greeted by a man in a chef’s coat.

Welcoming them warmly and chattering a mile a minute about the hotel, the chef ushered them through a luxurious back corridor.  That one led to another, which led to a steep set of stairs that turned into another. 

The steps seemed endless enough for Ari to joke under her breath, “I’m not going to Hell am I?”

“If you stick with me you are,” he murmured with a laugh.  “But not tonight.” 

“And here we are,” their guide offered chipperly, stepping aside and offering a sweeping hand.  “The wine cellar.”

It wasn’t like any wine cellar Ari had ever seen.  Imagined, either, since she didn’t exactly frequent wine cellars. 

There was no dust, cobwebs or musty smell.  Far from it, in fact.  There was only a single table snugged in between pristine wine racks. 

A single candlelit table, romantically set for two with flowers, crystal and fine china.

He had given her a lot of things through the years.  Himself, mostly.  There was intimacy, a close bond, a relationship that went beyond titles.   There had even been gestures, but none so grand as this…  Cinderella day. 

He’d professed that things were going to be different, and Jon was going out of his way to prove it.  They weren’t sequestered in a hotel room eating room service in their jeans.  He’d arranged the most public and organized “date” they’d ever had.

With candles whose flames reflected a thousand times more brightly through the burn of tears.    

Something uncorked within her, and the dam broke.

Jesus, how many tears can one person have?

“Ari... What’s wrong, baby? You don’t like it?”  

Ariana looked up at him with wide eyes.  She attempted to speak.  Honestly, she did, but her throat just wouldn’t let the words pass. 

All she could do was shake her head.   

Wednesday, April 15, 2020

24 - Something Beautiful

Jon woke feeling refreshed and full of energy. The only thing missing was Ariana.

His hand touched her side of the bed to find it cool, which meant she had been up for a while.  Surprising since they’d talked long into the night and made love one more time before falling asleep again.

Tossing the covers aside, he used both thumb and forefinger to rub imaginary sand from his eyes before padding across plush carpet to grab sweats from the closet.  Once he was semi-dressed and had taken care of morning business, he set out to find Ariana.

He followed the sound of her voice as she sang along to one of Quebec's own about ‘making her come alive’, ultimately finding her perched on a stool in the breakfast nook.  One leg was curled under her while the other was bent with the heel resting on a wooden rung.  Her hair was wild, like always after a night of sex, and she was wearing his shirt from yesterday as her body swayed to the sultry beat.

She looked too cute to disturb, so he watched without speaking until the song ended. 

“Ahem.”

Her head snapped around at the sound of his voice and pressed Pause on the remote control. “How long have you been standing there?”

“Long enough to know that ‘I make you come alive’. Well, I assume it's me you’re talking about. Good morning, gorgeous.” He placed a small kiss on her lips and peered over her shoulder at her plate. “Hmm, salad for breakfast. It is still breakfast time, isn’t it?”

He reached in the bowl and pulled out a piece of chicken.

“Technically, it is. I figured since we didn’t eat last night why not eat it now? Want some?” she asked, pinching his ass as she hopped off the stool to go get him a dish. “Coffee?”

“Ye...” Noticing that the sway of her hips made his shirt rise and fall in a most intriguing way, he let curiosity win out over caffeine. “Nah, I’ll take a bottle of water. They’re on the bottom shelf.” 

“One bottle of water coming up.” As she bent to grab his beverage, the shirt’s hem inched up to expose… lace-trimmed boy shorts. His groan of disappointment made Ari smile.  When she returned with his plate and water, she brushed up behind him, reaching around to put them on the table and whispering in his ear,  “Not what you were hoping for, eh?”

“You don’t see me complaining?” he replied with a smile. “Now eat up. Cara should be here in an hour.”

“Why?”

“The two of you have a spa day. I called her last night, and she thought it was an excellent idea.”

“Thank-you Jon.” She rested her hand over his. “Girls’ day at the spa. This is going to be fun.”

“You’re welcome. Just promise me no drunk texting. Afterwards, I’m taking you out for a night on the town.”

“Cross my heart, no drunk texting. Where exactly are we going?”

“It’s a surprise. Just be ready by six.”

“Can I at least have a little hint, so I know how to dress? All I have with me is my touring clothes.”

“As long as its slinky and sexy as hell you’ll be fine.”

She rolled her eyes at him and muttered, “Guess I’m going shopping. What are you going to do while I’m out having fun?”

“Nice try.” He piled their dishes and placed them in the sink. “Don’t you worry that pretty head of yours. I have plenty to keep me busy. Like I said, be ready to go at six.” 

She gave him her best pouty lips and reached for the remote. The sultry sound filled the room again. “Fine! I’m going to get ready.” 



When Ariana left, Jon was sitting at the computer. He claimed to be working and answering emails, but she could tell he was up to something.  The man thought he had a poker face but was a lousy liar.  Or maybe she’d just known him too long.  She was laughing to herself about it as she walked into LeSpa.

It was one of the most beautiful spas she’d visited, nestled in vault of the former Merchants’ Bank, which dated back to 1870.  The stone walls were part of the fortification of the City of Montréal and later preserved, giving it unique surroundings and historic architectural elements. 

“What’s got you smiling?” Cara asked, embracing Ari and kissing both her cheeks.

“Oh, Jon’s up to something. I just left him hovering over his computer claiming to be working, but I don’t buy it. Hey, wait a sec.  What do you know about tonight?”

“Not a thing. He just told me to meet you here. Et voilá, I’m here.”

“Pinky swears.” She held out a bent finger.

“Pinky swears.” The locked their fingers together reminiscent of all the years they had been friends. They were interrupted by the attendant who had just walked into the room.

Bonjour. Can I have your names so I can mark you in?” she asked as her fingers tapped the keyboard.

“Moretti. Ariana Moretti.”

“Ah, yes. Ms. Moretti and Ms. Francis. I see we have you scheduled for our Prestige package.” She handed each of them a tri-fold portfolio explaining what the package entailed. “If you would please follow me, I will show you where to change so we can get started.”

The next four hours were filled with more pampering and relaxation than Ariana had enjoyed in… God knew when.  There was waxing, scrubbing, wrapping, hot stones, massage and whole lot of girl talk. 

Cara approved of Lili’s final resting spot under the tree, saying she would love it there.

Ariana told her about breaking down and how Jon took care of her. She explained how it was then she concluded that she loved him more than words could say and wanted to be with him for the rest of her life.  Cara was very happy for her friend and wished her all the happiness in the world. 

The rest of the time they talked about this coming Thursday. It was a big night at Petit Soho. Jonas had agreed to come and play a few sets for them.  Not that this was unusual. He’d jammed there before he made it big.

Ariana got a kick at how excited her friend was. Giddy like a schoolgirl with a crush. It was sure to be a night to remember.

They stopped to grab a cup of coffee before heading to the hotel’s boutique. Ari needed all the help she could get. She loved clothes, but when it came to the fancy schmancy kind, she had no clue. Hanging around a bunch of brutes her whole life might have had something to do with it.

As they entered the store they were greeted by a very tall, very attractive woman. “Good afternoon. How can I help you today?”

“Yes. I’m looking for...” Ariana looked at Cara.

“She has a hot date tonight and needs something sexy, very sexy,” Cara replied.

“I see. May I ask, what’s the occasion? Would you be needing an evening gown or something chic?”

“Honestly, I don’t know much about the details, just that it is a dinner date.” Ariana looked at her friend with an inquisitive eye.

“Well then, chic and sexy it is.” She left them and went about the store picking up a few items.  When she returned, she must have had about five or six outfits for Ariana to try. “Why don’t you start with these?” She showed her to the dressing room.

“Well this should be fun,” Ari said to Cara once they were alone.

“Oh, shut up and get in there.” She pushed her friend into the empty room.” I don’t know why you are making such a big thing out of this. You love to shop.”

“Yeah, for jeans and t-shirts, not this.” Sliding the hangers on a hook, she shed current jeans and t-shirt for a charcoal A-line dress.  She shimmied into it and opened the fitting room door, cocking her head to ask, “How’s this?”

“Nice, but not sexy enough. Next,” Cara dismissed and shooed her back inside.

“Ugh. See, I told you.” The door slammed behind her, barely masking her huff of frustration as she sorted through the next few.  Most were dismissed without even trying them on, but then she came to a silky little green dress.   “Oooh!” 

“Ah ha! Sounds like you found one you like. Hurry, let me see.”

“Give me a second, will you?” Ariana replied, still trying to get into the dress.  When it was situated, she opened the door and stepped out, twirling around on her tippy toes in front of the mirror.  “I like this one. What do you think?”

“Very sexy. I love the way the back crisscrosses like that. You wouldn’t need a bra with it.” Cara gave her friend a wink.

Ariana shook her head. “Whatever. I have one more to try on, but I think I’ll take this one.” 

She retreated to her room one last time, where she slithered from the green silk into the remaining dress.  The detailed beading and low scooped back were what caught her eye, and the dress’s nylon lining glided over her body, caressing the bare skin. 

When the hem came as far as it would, she wiggled her shoulders and studied herself in the mirror.  It was a stunning little number, with little being the key word.

“Well are you going to show me or not?”

Little or not, she liked it, and by the look on Cara’s face, she liked it too. 

“Oh my God. It’s gorgeous! That’s it. That’s the one.”.

“It is beautiful, isn’t it?” She ran her hands down her sides, twisting and turning in front of the trio of mirrors Cara pushed her toward.  Very nice, indeed.  “I think we are done.”

With a satisfied smile, and wearing her jeans again, Ariana took the two pretty frocks to the register.  This shopping thing wasn’t so bad, once in a while. 

“I see you found something you liked,” the salesclerk observed.

“Yes, I have. Thank you.” She handed passed over the dresses, followed by her credit card.  Rather, she tried to follow with her credit card.  The woman refused it with a demure smile. 

“That won’t be necessary, Ms. Moretti. It’s already been taken care of.”

“What do you mean?”

“This was left for you.” The woman passed Ariana an envelope and proceeded to sheath the dresses in plastic.  “I hope that you enjoy your date.”

“Thank you. I wi...” Ariana’s voice trailed off as she read the card.

Ari,

I can’t wait to see which one you chose. I had to run out, meet me in the bar at six.

Love,
J

She folded the card in her hand, accepting the dress bag without a word and nearly knocking Cara down when turning around.  She’d forgotten that her friend was still standing there. 

“Oh, I’m sorry. I had a great time today, but I need to get going.” Holding the dresses to one side, she used the other arm to pull her friend into a tight hug.  “Thank you.”

“There’s no need to thank me,” Cara assured with a wicked grin.  “But if you must, do it by making loverboy’s jaw hit the ground when he sees you in those. Have fun tonight.”

Wednesday, April 8, 2020

23 - A Thousand Years

They stood nose to nose as the sound of water draining from the tub echoed off the marble floor.

Ariana gazed into eyes that were the color of a deep blue sea shimmering in the sunlight, and the emotion there was a reflection of what she felt in the center of her chest.  He would give her the strength to get through this.  All she had to do was accept it.

Lifting her face, she grazed his jaw with pillowed lips for first one kiss, then another.  The kisses found their way down to his collarbone and up the solid warmth of his throat to his ear.  She worshipped him without a word until her lips hovered against his.

“I love you,” she whispered with raw honesty, twining fingers into soft waves of blond to draw him closer. 

The first touch of their mouths was a tentative one, like she was kissing him for the first time.  He didn’t rush her, and the caress of warm lips under hers was softer than she could ever remember it being.  She lingered there for a moment, savoring his taste and running a lazy tongue across his bottom lip.

The flavor was not only familiar, it carried something she could remember quite clearly.  Something that stirred a rush of adrenaline in her belly.

When the weight of Jon’s hands became heavier against the small of her back, she readily arched against him.

Ari wanted him as much now as she had that night in Rio.  More.  Because this time she didn’t have to hide from her feelings – or hide them from him.  She wasn’t going to hide them from him.

He let himself be led blindly until the mattress hit the back of his knees, and his groan of disappointment when she broke their kisses was another shot of adrenaline.  Rays of moonlight lit the room as she lifted his arms and reached for the hem of his shirt, pulling it over his head. Impatient hands played with the pelt salt and pepper chest hair, and teasing thumbs traced circles over his nipples on their way down his toned, tanned stomach. 

She undid the button of his jeans as desire flushed in her cheeks.  Her heart pounded while she slipped denim and briefs over narrow hips, and they fell easily to his knees and caught.  Urging hands found the top of muscled shoulders, and she pushed downward in silent command.  He obediently sat on the edge of the bed, and she knelt before him to finish removing the clothes that were completely unnecessary. 

He could feel her hands trembling against his thighs when she pushed against them to stand.  Dewy green eyes watched him, and their beauty resembled the freshness of grass after a morning rain. 

Those eyes weren’t the only thing he found beautiful, and Jon tugged at her towel.   When it slithered to the floor in a damp heap, his palms settled against the bare indentation of waist to pull her closer.  His nose nuzzled between her breasts, where he inhaled the scent of candied apples until it completely filled his nostrils.

A soft sigh escaped her as his breath hitched against the fragrant flesh.

Ariana cupped a lean cheek and brought his eyes to hers. “Let me love you.”

“Only if you promise not to stop.”

She smiled against his lips, kissing him slowly at first – a single, soft peck was followed by another.  Those were chased by clinging lips and heated breath until there was no telling whose lips were whose. 

Ari was lost in the taste of him – them – as she pushed him to lie back on the bed and straddled his waist.  Her swaying breasts had nipples scraping his chest when she bent close, whispering in his ear.  “I’ll… never… stop.”

Eyes closed, she nibbled the vein that protruded from his neck.

“I have loved you...” She licked her way towards his Adam's apple, his five o’clock shadow tickling her tongue. Ari felt Jon’s thick erection against her folds as she slid further down his thighs, the tops of her feet resting on the middle of his shins. “...from the first day I saw you.” 

Her tongue twisted around his nipple, causing it to harden.

“Crash,” he moaned.

“Sshhh...”  She took the hardened peak of his other nipple between her teeth and bit gently.  “Not a day… has gone by… that I haven’t… loved you.”

Feathery kisses over his well-defined abs punctuated every word. When she lifted her head to look at him, her half-damp locks grazed his sides making his eyes jolt open. 

Steering her hips, he pulled her onto his aching hardness and slowly slid them into Heaven.  It had to be Heaven, because they fit each other perfectly, as if God had made them for one another.

Whimpering quietly, she rocked back and forth on the hard body that made her soft inside.  Not a day would go by that she wouldn’t love him.  

Jon’s hands revered her body – breasts, the dip of her spine, quivering thighs and round cheeks.  The smooth softness of her skin felt good against his, both inside and out.  He felt the constant twitching play of her muscles clenched around him as her flesh smoldered under his touch.

“Ari, look at me.” Hooded eyes gazed up at him, an endless field of green. “I love you.”

Their mouths locked together, and fevered tongues intermingled as they melded into one being.  They absorbed the pleasure of making love without reservation until they catapulted into the clouds of their personal Heaven together.

Breathless and weak, they lay in each other's arms still stroking.  Still as one. 

And as Ariana drifted towards sleep, she finally claimed what had been the truth all along.

I’m his, and he’s mine. 




They were lying snuggled close, with her head on his chest and his right arm wrapped around her waist. The steady sound of his breathing sang softly in her ear as shafts of light streamed through to light the room, and her mind wandered over the past few days.  So much had happened, but where would they go from here? 

“Jon? You up?”

“Mm.”

“We need to talk.”

“I know,” he sighed, but it didn’t deter her from pressing.  All this speculation was making her nuts.  She needed some concrete plans.

“What are you going to do? I mean... really?”

“I haven’t thought it out completely, but I plan on talking with Dot as soon as I go home.”

“Can you think it out before you go, please? And are you going tell her about me?” 

“Yes.”  His confidence was equally comforting and anxiety-inducing.  “I’m not hiding us anymore. We deserve to be together, and she deserves to know the truth. I’d like to have this all out in the open before the tour starts.”

Things were getting very real and very complicated, causing Ari to unconsciously gulp.  There was no way around it, though.  “Okay. I’ll stand by whatever you do.” 

“Baby, you know it’s not going to be a smooth ride? I mean things with me and Dot haven’t been good for a while, but I’m not sure how well she will handle how long you and I have been together.”

“Oh, she’s going to be furious,” Ari predicted. 

“I have no doubt she’ll be mad, and I can’t blame her.”

“I should have let you leave her, but then you wouldn’t have... Jon, what are you going to tell the kids?” 

“Ari, don’t do that. We’re here now, and as for the kids…  I’ll talk with Dot about what she thinks.  For now, it’s probably just best if we tell them we’re getting divorced.”

“So, do you plan on telling them about us?”

He lifted his head off the pillow and looked down at her.

“Of course, I do.  I plan on telling everyone.” He placed a kiss on her forehead. “Since we’re talking plans here, what are you planning on doing? I want you with me on the tour.”

She sighed and put her face in his chest to hide the sadness that he would undoubtedly see.

“I have commitments here to take care of. Then there’s my job, and I should go check on the house in California. Besides, do you think it’s a good idea me for me to be on tour with you?”

“You and me waking up like this every morning? I’d say it's an excellent idea.” He gave her bare cheek a squeeze, trying to lighten the mood. 

Lifting her face, she hit him with a light scowl. “Jon, I’m serious.”

“I know you are, babe. And I understand you have things to work out, but the tour doesn’t officially start till February.  There’s some promotional stuff to do.  That’s mostly local, but we do have to go to London to tape the ‘London Radio Theatre’ gig.  Maybe I can tack on a few days, and you can meet me there.”

“London. When is that again?”

“Beginning of November sometime, I think. I know we’re done on the twenty-fifth for the holidays. I’ll check with Jeanie in the morning.”

“Um...okay.”

“Hey.” He nudged her while softly playing with her hair. “What just happened here?  You got all sad sounding.”

“Nothing. It’s just...this will be my first holiday without Lili.”

“Aw, Ari I’m sorry.”  He squeezed her into a hug.  “You know I’d be here if I could.  It’s just...with the situation. I think it would be best if I spend it with the kids this year.”

She sat up hastily.  “Of course you should! It’s where you belong. They’re your family, and I wouldn’t expect you to be anywhere else.” 

“Ariana, you’re family,” he reminded sternly. 

“I didn’t mean it like that, Jon.  I just meant it’ll be difficult for them to learn their parents are getting divorced.  They’ll need you around.” Tucking the sheet under her arms, she assured both him and herself, “I’ll be fine. Cara and Max will be here, and we’ll do our traditional holiday stuff. It’ll just be sad not having Lili with us.”

“Yes, it’ll be tough, but she’ll be right here with you.” He touched his finger over her heart.

“I know.”  Ari found his eyes and told him with quiet determination, “I know it isn’t going to be easy, but I haven’t changed my mind.  I want us.”

“Good, because I want us, too.  You just gotta have a little faith that it’ll all work out.”

His quick movement had her under him, and she blinked up, noticing how his shoulders bunched as he shifted weight from one hand to the other. 

During the last twenty years, she had studied every inch of his body a thousand times, yet today it seemed so different – his tanned skin and blue eyes, the distinguished lines bracketing his goofy grin.  Everything was the same yet unfamiliar.  A new day was dawning, and it was going to be a bright, sunshiny one.