Wednesday, March 30, 2022

193 - Glad All Over

 


July 11, 2010

Saratoga Springs, NY: Saratoga Performing Arts Center

 

Ariana sat alone off in the corner of tonight’s catering tent. Her feet were up on the chair across from her, earbuds tucked in her ears, and her fingers swiftly pounding away at the keyboard of her laptop. Which was exactly how she’d spent most of her down time the last day and a half.  Avoiding her husband or as well as anyone who had been in the emergency room after the Jersey show. 

 

Except for him. Since the incident, they have been joined at the hip. Not because she needed his protection, but by her choice. Sitting quietly a few tables away, playing on his phone as he always did, Cliff glanced up now and then to make sure she was alright. 

 

The Jersey show — things went from fun to insane faster than Jeff Gordon coming out of pit road as they carried Jon from the stage, reeling in pain after he finished not one but two fucking songs. People running all around as they put him in a chair, yelling for his wife then quickly whisked to the dressing room, so that Dean could get a look at him. 

 

At the time, what Jon didn't know and what no one had the balls to tell him was they had already put her into one of the black vans kicking and screaming herself and were heading to Riverview Medical Center. This little ordeal had caused a spike in her blood pressure, and Dr. Cummings wanted to get her some place with the proper technology so she could monitor her.

 

When Cliff took the job as her personal security, he learned right from the get-go Ariana was a straight shooter. That night, though, was different. That night, he witnessed just how pissed off she could get. Pissed at Jon for continuing, pissed that no one, not even Matt, Paul, Dawn, or his own mother, could do anything to get him off that stage. She was pissed that no one even let her try, but she knew why. She knew if they had, she would’ve climbed those steps so fast and pull his ass off herself. 

 

When they had finally arrived at the hospital, she wouldn't let anyone help her except for him. Once they were inside and situated, she had calmed just enough to allow Nicole to do what she needed to do. After a thorough examination, it was determined that the anxiety of what had happened and her slight dehydration caused the spike. By the time her fluid bag finished and her release papers were being printed, they were wheeling Jon into the next bed.

 

In the small tight-knit Bon Jovi circle he become a part of, he learned, Jon was known to have a bad temper, but after the other night, Mrs. Bongiovi could give him a run for his money. If not worse. She stood, planted at the foot of his bed with her hip cocked to one side, arms tightly crossed over her chest and her fiery green eyes staring down at him. Watching her, he could see the smoke billowing from her ears as she waited as the doctors feverishly worked on her husband and spat orders of what then needed done.

 

Once they were done and assured her he was going to live, they left the room. Leaving him, Matt, Dr. Cummings, Paul and Dean to witness the proverbial shit hitting the fan. In a combination of her native languages, she lit into him for his act of stupidity. Even in obvious pain, he went tit-for-tat with her. At one-point things got so heated, Jon’s monitors starting beeping. That's when Matt and Dr. Cummings tried to step in, but Ariana held up a firm hand, stopping them. And when she was finally done saying all she needed to tell her husband, she turned to where he stood at the door, looked him square in the eye and said she was leaving. 

 

Cliff wasn’t sure what he had done to not be in her crosshairs, but here they were like that night, like all the others that followed, avoiding her husband and anyone who’d been in that emergency room that night except him. 

 

When he heard her stop typing, he looked in her direction. She had her eyes closed and was rotating her neck from side to side. Pushing his chair back, he stood, “You okay, Lucy.” he called just loud enough for her to hear him.

 

“Uh-huh.”  

 

A quick look over his shoulder explained the rolling of her eyes in acknowledgment. 

 

“Hey, Cliff, can you give us a few minutes?” Jon motioned to the door.

 

“Sure thing, boss.” Laying a firm hand on Jon’s shoulder, Cliff gave her one last look before leaving them.

 

Limping across the room, Jon pulled out two chairs next to her and sat in the one closest to her. Then he rested his leg on the other. He waited to see if she would remove her earbuds. When she didn’t, he gently pulled the one closest to him and asked her to do the same with the other.  

 

Reluctantly, and with a growl, she did. She even pushed her laptop to the middle of the table and rested her hands-on top of her stomach.

 

“Can we call a truce? My dick’s so hard, it’s turning blue.” Laughing, he caught her wrist just before it reached his face. “I’m kidding. Well, partly.” he winked. “So, truce?”

 

Ari just shrugged. She herself couldn’t figure out why she was still mad, but she was. At all of them. Except Cliff. He’d been the only one who stood aside and let her get it all out. Now, maybe the fact that he was her employee had something to do with it. Who knew? She just knew that he gave her the space she needed and was there when she needed him.

 

“Earth to Crash. I can’t fix it if you don’t talk to me.”

 

Digging the heels of her hand into her eyes, she tried to fight the tears she felt starting. “Argh!”

 

“What?”

 

“That right there. You calling me Crash.”

 

“I’m confused. You’re mad because I called you Crash?”

 

“No.” she shook her head.

 

“Well, then you lost me again.”

 

 “Promise not to laugh?”

 

“Cross my heart.” He hooked his pinky with hers.

 

“Seeing you hurt up on the stage the other night and watching no one doing anything about it brought back flashbacks of Doc.”

 

“Doc? Why?”

 

“Because that's what he would do. He'd just sit back and watch as you strained your voice night after night.”

 

“But this was nothing like that.”

 

“I know.” Feeling silly, she looked down at his hand and her fingers traced his. “But I felt just as helpless back then, as I did the other night. No matter how hard I tried to get someone to do something, they didn’t. I know part of it had to do with you, too. Stubborn ass.”

 

“I’m stubborn? You’re the one not talking to me for two days.”

 

“What-eva-ah!” she smirked and gave him her signature eye roll. 

 

“Ahh, there’s my feisty girl." he brushed her fingers with a kiss. "So, tell me what you've been doing for two days. Your head’s been buried in that laptop of yours."

 

“Sure, you wanna know?”

 

“You ain’t been reading the fanfiction shit again?”

 

“Nope.”

 

“Thank God.”

 

“I bought a loft.”

 

“You did what?”

 

Ari slowed her speech and sounded out each syllable. “I. Bought. A. Loft.”

 

“I heard you the first time. Where? Better yet, why?”

 

“Montreal. And because we are going to need a place. Lili’s house won’t fit us all.”

 

“True. But don’t you think you should have looked at it first? Did you put a hold on it? Do you need my lawyers to look at it first?”

 

“Dude, slow down. I was emailing the final papers when you came in. I had planned on talking to you about it this next week when we got to Canada. As much as I loved to stay over Petit, there is no way we would all fit comfortably without killing each other. The St. James is okay for now, but we will need something when you aren’t touring.”

 

“I still don’t get why you wouldn’t want to look at it first.”

 

“No need to. I know the area and the building it's in. They are beautiful. Open, exposed brick, arched windows throughout the whole place. Everyone will have their own bedroom, plus ours and one guest room. Same with bathrooms. There’s also an office, we both can share, and an entire floor that hasn't been renovated yet. We could make it a game room or studio. Whatever you want. The open living room and kitchen floor plan is perfect for hosting parties or just spending a quiet evening at home with the family.”

 

“It sounds amazing. Where do I sign?”

 

“That’s it? No questions?”  

 

“Nada. If buying a loft is what you want, then it’s alright by me.”

 

“You don’t even want to know what it cost.”

 

“Nope.”

 

Ari placed the back of her hand on his forehead. “Hmm...”

 

“Funny.”

 

“Did you take one-to-many Percocet today?”

 

“Would you knock it off?” 

 

“But aren’t you a tiny bit curious about how many zeros or whose checking account?”

 

“Crash, I. Trust. You.” he tweaked her nose. “Now shut up and show me our newest home.”


Tuesday, March 29, 2022

192 - Who Said You Can't Go Home


July 9, 2010

East Rutherford, NJ: New Meadowlands Stadium

 

Ariana was bound and determined to make it through this day. No ifs, ands or buts about it. The last time the band played here she was stuck halfway across the world. The furthest away she planned on being was the porta-potty she had maintenance set up right behind the stage for her. 

 

Giants Stadium had always been a pivotal venue for the band. Hometown bragging rights and all that. The crowds were always loud with ultimate participation. They literally put the ROCK in rock the house. Tonight would be no different.

 

After dropping the kids off at their grandparents, she shared a lovely lunch with Cara and Jon at Barnacle Bill’s before heading over to the stadium. Paul and Jeanie were already there waiting to usher Jon and the band through the day's never ending press parade of entertainment shows and local newspapers, who were there to interview the hometown boys. That left the two amigos pretty much to do what they wanted.  

 

“Ariana Moretti! If you don’t sit still, my niece will be born on the fifty-yard line.”  

 

Cara cried out after her as they crossed the field for the umpteenth time today. She had been like the energizer bunny on crack, with no signs of slowing down since they arrived. Helping anyone who asked and offering to those who didn’t.

 

“It’s Bongiovi now.” 

 

“Kiss my ass!”

 

“No, thank you.”

 

“But seriously, you need to slow it down. It’s hotter that a whorehouse on nickel night and it’s only soundcheck.”

 

“You visiting whore houses again?” Ariana took a seat in the empty row just in front of the soundboard and stretched out her legs.

 

“You know what I’m talking about. We have been running around this stadium non-stop. There are people who are actually getting paid to do what you are doing right now. Can’t you just let them do their jobs?”

 

“O-kaaay, Jon!” Ari rolled her eyes at her friend and went back to tinkering with the soundboard. “

 

“Try it now, Ton,” she spoke into the black wire falling from her ear. Pushing a button here and lowering a lever there, she looked over at Cara, who was standing with her hip cocked and her arms folded across her chest.

 

“What? You heard it straight from the doctor's mouth,” she rubbed her hands over her hard belly, “this goose is still cooking.” 

 

“Yeah, well, we all know well enough how that could change on a dime.”

 

“Fine. If it will make you happy, after this we will go join them for dinner and then I’ll rest.”

 

“Promise….”

 

“Cross my swollen ankles.”

 

“Not. Even. Funny.”

 

         

 

Ari hadn’t seen or spoken to Jon all day, other than lunch and soundcheck. He’d been swamped with one reporter after another, or with the never-ending flow of people who always popped out of the woodwork for one of the hometown shows. So, she wasn’t surprised he wasn’t at dinner either.  

 

After she checked in with Jeanie to make sure Jon had eaten, she enlisted her brother-in-law for some help. Her instructions were simple and non-negotiable - no interruptions prior to showtime. No exceptions! She wanted to spend the remaining time they had before the crazy train began with her husband all to herself.

 

“Look, I have cankles?” Laughing, she rested her head on his shoulder.

 

“Hey, they’re beautiful cankles, if I do say so myself.”

 

“Your opinion doesn’t count.”

 

“Oh, it doesn’t now?”

 

“Nah, you promised in front of God and all our friends to love me, in swollenness and fatness, till death do us part.”

 

“Funny, I don’t remember saying those exact words.”

 

“Yeah, well, you were too drunk to remember much.”

 

“Oh, contraire mon aimee.” He shifted so she was facing him and dragged her legs into his lap. Slipping off her right flip-flop, he tossed it on the floor and did the same to the left.  

 

“Wanna know what I remember?” 

 

“Sure.”

 

“I remember the only thing swollen and fat that night was my dick when I came in your hand, like some lovesick boy getting his first-hand job.”

 

Ari tossed back her head and laughed. “Touché.”

 

“So, what have you and Frenchie been up to all day?” He let his fingers dig into the bottom of her foot.

 

“This and that. Tony and Obie were having a few glitches…” he gave her a sideway glance. “Before you say anything, I was sitting the whole time. Well, other than the walking back and forth from the video console and soundboard.”

 

“What kinda of glitches?”

 

“You know, the pre-show Murphy’s Law kind. Rechargeable batteries acting up, the VCA and DCA wouldn’t mirror properly and the di-box connections were being squirrelly.”

 

“And I assume it was you who got it all figured out.” 

 

“Yup!” she said proudly.

 

“You are your father's daughter, you know that.”

 

“Moretti’s… best in the business.”

 

“Yeah, don’t I know it,” he switched feet. “So, all good now?”

 

“Uh-huh. Obie even let me add some tweaks to the mixing console while he did his walk around during soundcheck.”

 

“He did now. Care to share what you did?”

“Ancient Moretti secret. If I tell ya, I have to kill ya.”

 

“You do know I have final say. What if I don’t like it?”

 

“Ah baby, I thought you liked it when I tweak it.”

 

His boisterous laugh filled the room as she swung her feet off his lap and set them on the floor. “Hold that thought. I have to pee.”

 

Standing, she walked across the massive locker room and into the equally massive bathroom. One of the perks of being Jon Bon Jovi; you were the only one given the honor of using the Giants' locker room as your dressing room.  

 

This morning she was half tempted to dig out her faded 49ers shirt even though she knew it wouldn’t have fit when she dressed this morning, but she wasn’t that cruel. Instead, she went with one Matt and Dez had given her for her birthday. They made her promise she would wear it tonight. It would be the one and only time she would wear the silly pink tank with ‘Daddy’s little Giants Fan’ written across the belly. 

 

When she returned, he was sitting with his foot resting on his knee. His trusty legal pad was in his lap and his sharpie dangling between his lips. Making a quick stop at the long buffet table, she pulled two water bottles from the bucket of ice and crossed the room back to the couch. Setting his bottle down on the table, she tucked her leg the best she could under her and curled next to him.  

 

Watching as he scribbled away, they talked about his never-ending afternoon of interviews and how exhausting it was repeating the same thing over and over. She joked that she finally had a better understanding of how he felt. At every turn today, Carol was there introducing her to yet another family member. She couldn’t believe just how many cousins he actually had. 

 

True, the Bongiovi lineage was a long one, with her father-in-law having only one brother, there seemed to be a lot of them. Okay, maybe there weren't that many, but to her, anything over one was a lot. He explained that there were so many cousins that even he had a hard time keeping track of them. That he would just nod his head and smile because he couldn’t remember all their names. 

 

They discussed the after party that took place in the stadium’s private suites upstairs and that when she was ready to leave, all she’d have to do was just give the sign and they’d be gone. Jokingly, she teased him about how convenient it was having a pregnant wife for getting out of things he didn’t want to do. Their time together had been so relaxing they couldn’t believe how much time had passed when they heard Kid Rock taking the stage. It also meant it was his cue to start getting ready. And when she stayed on the couch instead of going out to watch Kid, he called her old.  

 

“Show time, bro.” Matt banged on the door.

 

“Time to go shake my ass.” He swished his hips in one of his signature moves.

 

“Try not to break anything, old man.” She grabbed a handful of his ass.

 

“Hardy, har, Mommy’s funny.” He lowered to kiss her belly, then her. “Ready?”

 

Opening the door, she stepped out into the corridor. “Let’s do this.”

 

         

 

“Black or red?” 

 

Tipping his chin at the red one, he peeled off his soaked shirt. He reached for one of the open water bottles Dawn had placed in front of him and plopped down in his chair. Like a well-oiled machine, Dean worked his neck and throat as Dawn worked the blow dryer.

 

“Having fun, Crash?” He winked in between gulps.

 

“Always.”

 

 “It’s hotter than a motherfucker. You drinking enough water?”

 

Nodding yes, she pushed away the bottle he offered her and stepped out of the way to make room for Rew.


“Goin’ with the setlist?”  

 

“Nah. Crowds on fire might as well give them their money’s worth.”  

 

With the information he needed, Rew took off, followed by Dean and Dawn. Kindly giving them the two seconds of privacy that had become part of his quick-change ritual, for nothing more than a quick kiss and check-in to see how his girls were holding up.

 

“Money’s worth, eh? Someone’s feeling generous.”

 

Tugging the shirt over his head, he pulled her into his space and planted a wet one on her. “That’s right. Got my favorite girl by my side…” grins grow on both of their faces as they felt the movement between them, “girls,” he exaggerated the s as he bent to kiss her belly. 

 

Fifty seconds into the third song of the encore, Ariana felt the stadium walls slowly closing in one treacherous inch at a time as she watched the image of Jon in pain on the monitor. 

 

“Get him the fuck off the stage!” she yelled to anyone who would listen to her.

 

“Ariana. You need to calm down. It’s not good for you or the baby.” Nicole tried securing the cuff around her arm.

 

Ari pushed the doctor's hands away. “Really? How the fuck would you like me to do that when my husband is hurt, and no one is doing a God damn thing about it?”

 

“If you don’t let me take your blood pressure, I will have Cliff hold you down, so I can.”

 

“Fine!” she puffed out a breath.

 

“Tony, can you shut that fucking thing off?” Nicole barked.

 

“Not really.” Tony turned his chair, so he was half watching his monitor and half looking at his sister-in-law. 

 

“Ari, look at me. Matt and Dean are handling it. You need to let Nic do what she needs to do.”

 

Closing her eyes, she let her head hit the back of the chair. 




Saturday, March 26, 2022

191 - Happy Birthday Baby


July 4, 2010

Red Bank, New Jersey

 

Ariana shifted slightly in her sleep to pull the blankets further over her head before tucking the corner between her leg like she always did. Officially, it was her birthday for one entire minute, and he was torn between waking her up or letting her sleep so he could continue to watch her. He’d been itching to give her her gift. His plan was to surprise her with it tonight at the party, but here, now, it was just them and it felt like the perfect time.

 

As usual, he had no clue what to get her. Lord knew she wouldn’t let him buy her jewelry, hated anything sparkly that would clash with her jeans and tees style. Clothes could work–he could even get back all the ones she stole from him. A quick call to Andie and she’d have a whole new wardrobe, but he liked his ass just where it was and a new wardrobe at this stage of her pregnancy was sure to guarantee him an ass whooping.

 

Maybe he should just let her sleep. They had a big day ahead of them. A big party filled with lots of surprises, surprises she didn’t know about. Yeah, his gift could wait. It may get his ass out of the doghouse later.

 

“Hmm.” she sighed contentedly as she snuggled further into the warmth of him. “How long have you been watching me?”

 

“Oh, you know” he tucked the fallen curl behind her ear “a minute or twelve.”

 

“What time is it?” she whispered sleepily.

 

“Birthday time, Miss Fourth of July.” he said, bringing his head down to hers, capturing her lips with his.

 

“Yay me,” she mouthed into the kiss. She was not a fan of birthdays. Never was really. They’d always reminded her of what she lost so she could be here. A constant reminder of the worst day of her life.

 

Breaking the kiss, he tried not to notice the water that pooled in her eyes that she didn’t dare shed. “I have something for you.” he smirked.  

 

“I’m really not in the mood.”

 

“Not that silly,” he flicked the tip of her nose. “I have your gift.”

 

“You know I didn't want anything.” She shifted from his embrace and sat up against the pillows.

 

Doing the same as she did, he held out his hand and waited for her to hook hers with his. “Hear me out for a second.”  

 

She nodded.  

 

“I’ve been doing a lot of thinking the last two days about what to get you. You know you are not the easiest person to shop for.”

 

“That’s because everything I need is right here.”

 

“It wasn’t always that way.”

 

“Jon, I don’t want to rehash the past.”

 

“Neither do I. We’ve come a long way, and I wanted to give you something to sorta represent that.”

 

Ari’s eyes shifted between him and her huge belly. “I think you did already.”

 

“Could ya just let me finish?” She didn't reply. Instead, she scrunched her nose and rolled her eyes at him. “I know how much you hate this day, but if it wasn’t for this day, there’d be no you. No, us. I’ll let you in on a little secret. From our very first doctor’s appointment when we found out you were due in July and again when you told me you were having a girl, I’ve hoped and prayed she would arrive on this day. Still do.” 

 

“Jon…” Her fingers trailed and sifted through the ends of his hair as he kissed her stomach.

 

There’s still time, Lily bug.” he whispered to his daughter before he crawled out of their bed. She watched him pad across the room and through the room’s alcove that connected to the nursery.

 

“You know, your naked ass parading around really isn’t a fair gift. I see that every day.” When he strolled back into the room with the guitar she’d given him for Father’s Day strategically placed, she couldn't help but to tease him a little more. “Oooooh, my very own naked cowboy.” 

 

“I see some things never change. Always a little smartass.” Nudging her legs, she crisscrossed them the best she could so that he could sit. “Now, back to the important stuff. With nothing to get you, I figured the next best thing would be to write you a song.” holding up a single finger, she held back her thought. “Yeah, I know, been there, done that, but this one, well… just listen.”

 

Fumbling a little at first, he picked out the melody until he found the chord he was looking for and let his whisky voice serenade her. Effortlessly, the words slipped from his lips like he’d been singing it to her for an eternity. When in all honesty he had only finished it mere hours ago. 

 

Once the idea of writing her a song popped into his head, he knew just what the title would be. It had come from a comment she had made the other night regarding him and Johnny, and the more he thought about it, the truer it was for them as well.

 

In an empty room or a downtown bar

‘Cross the universe, there’s no place too far

Yeah, wherever you are, you and me

Thick as thieves

 

Well, it ain’t always pretty, sometimes it got rough

Could have thrown the towel in and just thrown our hands up

Seems like we've always been and always will be
Thick as thieves

Oooh… oooh… oooh….

 

In a world without faith, you're what I believe

When they’re stacking the deck,

You’re the card up my sleeve

In my hour of need, you and me

As thick as thieves

 

hmmm… hmm... hmmm

 

Now if I robbed a bank, you wouldn’t care

You’d come sit on my lap in the electric chair

And when they flipped the switch, ha, we’d just kiss

I know nothing’s gonna stop us now

You, me, us on the edge and never looking down

Oh, what’s a boy to do, it’s classic me and you

Lucky you, I say lucky me

We’re thick as thieves

Woah, ooooh ooooh, thick as thieves

Wwoah, woah, girl

 

For no other reason than he was concentrating on not fucking up, he never looked up at her until he played the last note. He knew he made the right choice of sharing it with her now when he saw her sitting there with her arms crossed over her belly, her green eyes glimmering with the tears she refused to let escape. Setting the guitar down against the nightstand, he hopped over her into his spot and back under the covers. Reaching for the light, he drew her into him and whispered against her hair. 

 

“Happy Birthday, Crash.”

         

 

Ari couldn’t have asked for a better birthday. Surrounded by friends and family, both old and new, and even though she asked that Jon not make a big deal, she was happy that for once he did not listen to her. One of her big surprises was that Jon had flown Carmela in from Italy so she could make her favorite dessert. Yes, there was a birthday cake, but she enjoyed her birthday zabaglione the best.  

 

They kept the rest of the party low key. Your typical summer holiday barbecue. Music playing on the speakers, kids running and playing in the pool. Brothers, both old and young, up to their usual antics. Jon and his dad manned the grilling while Carol, Dez, and Cara fussed about in the kitchen. She had tried to help, but was immediately banned and told to go sit outside and enjoy the fun. Being typical uncles, Matt, Tony, and Obie, occupied and tormented the kids, both in and out of the pool.

 

She spent time with Max, whom she realized she missed more than she thought. After telling her how generous Jon was, he wouldn’t let her talk about business, expect for telling her everything was going well. She promised that when they came to town next week, she would stop in and check on things. Maybe even spend a few days there.  

 

Jon’s shows were close enough that he could fly in and out. Nicole seemed to like that idea a lot. The only problem, two of the four kids would be with them, so she would have to clear it with them first. Hanging around an old pub versus a five-star hotel was an easy decision for her, but she realized not everyone felt that way. 

 

She had one serendipitous moment and slipped away for a private moment to the dock. Looking out into the water, she thought of Sal and Lili and how much they would have loved it here. The river was empty sans the barges for tonight's festivities, so she didn’t stay long. Jon sought her out and met her on her return to the party and asked if everything was alright. She simply kissed him and told him never better.

 

When the sun finally set, Romeo began asking when he could go set things up for the fireworks. She hadn’t seen him this excited and determined since he wanted a dog. Speaking of Meatball, that dog seems to grow by the minute. Watching him run and play with the kids had her curious about how he would be when they brought Lily home.

 

Lily — it was quite humorous watching two grown men, one being her husband, the other, said Godfather, each taking turns fussing over her belly, promising her unborn child the moon if she came into the world today. 

 

Just as Romey had promised her, the fireworks were spectacular. When all was said and done and everyone had gone home, Lily Francis proved she was as stubborn as both her parents, and did not arrive, and Ari was okay with that.