Jon placed a hand on the small of her back as they walked through the snow-covered parking lot. Her steps were quick, her body tense, and she didn’t say a word or look at him. She was pissed, but too damn bad. He had every right to be worried about her and the baby. That is why he brought up the subject. Opening the car door for her, he waited until she secured her seatbelt. “Ari…”
“Don’t!” she barked, reaching around him for the door handle and pulling it shut.
Pounding his fist on the roof, he rounded the car, pulled open his door, and slid behind the wheel. “Can we at least…” He turned and looked at her, her left leg rapidly bouncing as she stared mindlessly out the window.
Leaning forward and completely ignoring him, she turned on the radio. Mick Jagger singing about; You can’t always get what you want, roused a sarcastic hmph from her.
How befitting? It’s just like him to want things done his way. Well, not this time. Pushing the volume button, she felt his eyes burned into her as she turned the music up a few notches and slid back into her seat.
Jamming the key in the ignition, he slammed the gearshift into reverse. “Fine!” he grunted and tore out of the parking lot.
The tension in the car was thick as Jon navigated the black SUV along the back roads of New Jersey. Each of them brooding on their side of the car. If they were in a cartoon, you would see the smoke coming from their ears.
As he pulled into the quiet cul-de-sac and into the driveway of a quaint little house, Ariana felt her chest tighten. She’d only been here one other time and most definitely didn’t want to be here now. Not because of who was inside, but because she knew Jon wouldn’t just let this go. She knew if they didn’t discuss it now; he had no qualms about discussing this in front of his parents. Not in the mood to deal with the aftereffects, she unbuckled her belt and turned to face him.
“Listen here, mister! I am quite capable of speaking for myself and I sure as hell don’t need you doing it for me.”
“Cut the crap.” he put the car in park but kept it running. “I wasn’t speaking for you. I was merely voicing my concerns.”
“Yeah, well. We’ve been over this before. I’m not taking any drugs. And having you talk about me like I wasn’t even sitting there…”
“Hold on a damn minute.” He shifted in his seat and now faced her. “I did no such thing, and you know it. If I didn’t bring up the nightmares, were you even going to?”
“Why should I? There is nothing you or anyone else can do about them. End of discussion!”
“God dammit, Ari.” he slammed his hand against the wheel. “Why must you always do this?”
“Do what?”
“Make excuses.”
“Am not!” she shouted.
“The hell you aren’t. They’re not bad. I can handle them. Nothing anyone can do.” His head boobed back and forth as he mimicked her.
“I! Did! Not! Do! That!” she yelled, vehemently pointing her index in his direction.
“You’re so fuckin stubborn. Ya know that.”
“That’s the pot calling the kettle black, don’t you think.”
“You will not turn this around on me. I won’t allow it.”
“HA!” Who the hell made you, my keeper?”
“For Christ’s sake, you know that’s not how I meant it.”
And back and forth, they argued. Something they hadn't done in a very long time, but something they were both very good at doing. They fought about the same things they discussed before going to the doctors. Her fears and her dreams regarding them. The pros and cons of her taking medications to help. Why she refused to consider Dr. Barnes' options and why Jon thought she should. Their discussion was so heated and full of intensity, neither of them noticed Carol had come out of the house until she was tapping on Jon’s window.
Nowhere close to resolving this, they had no choice but to get out of the car and go inside. Tucking her hair behind her ear, Ariana opened her door and climbed out to greet her mother-in-law.
“Hello Carol. It’s good to see you.” Ariana rounded the front of the car to give her a hug.
“Nonsense.” Carol hooked her arm with hers. “It’s freezing out here. Let’s get you inside where it’s warm and then we can say our hello’s.”
As they stepped inside, the delicious smell of fresh herbs and garlic wafted through the entire house, like they were standing right in the middle of Carmela's restaurant in Italy and not New Jersey. Ariana handed her coat to Carol’s waiting hand and waited as she draped it over a hook on the antique coat rack.
“Look at you.” Carol's hands flanked her stomach. “You’ve grown so much since the last time I saw you.”
“Yes.” Ariana half smiled.
“Stop that. You look wonderful. How’d did everything go at the doctors? Everything okay? Does my newest granddaughter have a name yet?”
“Ma.” Matt stood in the kitchen's doorway with a slice of Italian bread in his hand. “Come up for air, will ya?” He walked across the room, placed a kiss on Ari’s cheek, and winked. “Des and the kids are in the kitchen.”
Carol’s twenty questions. Matt’s protectiveness. This was all new to Ariana. Yes, Lili would have been the same way, the hovering grand-mère. As would Sal, but this, this was different. Being part of a family like this, well, she missed out on things like family dinners. When she was with Sal, it was just the two of them or a hundred crew members, and when she spent time with Lili, they would eat most of their meal in Petit Soho. Cara and Max were there, too. It was just different.
Returning his wink, she ignored the first two questions and went with the one she knew would distract Carol. “Actually, yes she does. Lily Francis. Spelled like her Daddy and Pop-pop.”
“Aw. John, did you hear that?” Carol shouted.
“No. I’m slaving away in the kitchen. Send her in here.”
The two women made their way to the kitchen. The wonderful smells became even more prominent as they got closer, making Ari’s mouth water. John Sr. stood at the kitchen table, dish cloth hung over his shoulder as he prepared the lasagna. Desiree and Bella sat on the other side of the table with Rocco at the head of the table in his highchair.
“It smells delicious in here.” Ariana pressed a kiss to his cheek.
“Thank you. Now what was my wife babbling about out there?”
Shaking her head slowly at her husband's teasing words, Carol lifted the wooden spoon to stir the sauce on the stove.
“Do you want to tell him or can I?" she asked.
“Go ahead.” Ariana slid into the booth next to Bella.
“Lily Francis.” she looked down at him as he slid the lasagna into the oven. “Spelled with an ‘i’.”
Shutting the oven door, he turned and walked over to Ariana. Cupping her face between his hands and kissing the tip of her nose. “Beautiful. Just like her mama. I hope you like lasagna.”
Ariana rubbed her hands over her stomach. “Does it look like I don’t eat?”
Desiree gently nudged Ariana’s shoulder. “Nonsense. You look great.”
“I keep telling her that.” Jon appeared at in the doorway.
“Unkee Jonnnn.” Bella stood with her arms open wide, waiting as Jon reached over the table and scooped the little girl up. Safely in his arms and away from the table, he spun her around, their noses pressed together.
Ariana watched as the two interacted. The little girl sure loved her uncle and from the sparkle in Jon’s eyes, he was head over heels for her, too. Her incessant giggling kick started Rocco’s hands banging on the tray of his highchair, along with his high-pitched squeals.
“See what you’ve done?” Carol swatted the back of Jon’s head. “Now take them downstairs so we can finish up in here.”
Desiree and Ariana laughed as Jon made silly faces behind his mother's back. Setting Bella on the floor, he lifted his nephew out of the chair, stuffed a piece of bread in his mouth, and left.
“Dinner is in twenty minutes.” His father called after him. “Don’t go too far.”
“Yeah, Pop.” he gave a quick wave, leaving the four of them to finish up.